cherish me not and i will leave you at the tiny sight of miscare...
i won't look back for you don't deserve another chance...
i have been patient but will not tolerate coldness...
i have given you all and shown you all that i am...
yet have gotten only that blank-empty glare in your eyes...
you did not understand me...better yet, you did not want to...
for all you cared about...is yourself...
maybe i'm wrong...but that's how i feel...
prove your worthiness...and maybe you can soften my heart once more...
but cherish me not and i will never look back... does it matter to you that i wanna be free...
i have told you countless times...
but why haven't you given time to understand
you have your life
and i have mine
and nothing will come in between
at least not now, not yet
realize that i wanna fly like a bird
with no constraints to bring me down
i wanna soar through the sky
with a peaceful mind
and nothing holding me back
but i can't until you let me
i won't until you realize
that i want to be free...
just me... for some,
what was believed and thought of,
is a mere fantasy
what, at one second, was reality
is a mere delusion of one's mind
or maybe, one's self had too many expectations, too many hopes
and if you look closely at the core
of all those wishes, of all those desires
all you would see is a simple imagination of one's mind, a phantasm
if you search really closely at the midst of all those dreams,
all you would discover is emptiness
that is all you would find
in my soul i will go home tonight.....lie in my bed asleep
dreaming of unhappy thoughts
until my mind explodes from the insanity that corrupts itself
dreaming of violence, dreaming of war
my mind forever in a state of oblivion
(Fall '97) with hazy dreams is the uncertainty of future hopes
with hazy love is the uncertainty of who you're meant to be with.....
a world without your soulmate
hazy happiness is from lack of dreams, a lack of love
hazy dreams.....hazy love.....
thus, life of depression.....
existence with no meaning.....
a state of oblivion.
(0020098) you cause my head to burst from such a state of confusion
why love when it won't last
it only causes turmoil for both our souls
confusion is the world i live in now
indecisive.....out of control
without you i long for you
yet when i'm with you i wish for you to disappear
such an irony i say
it never used to be like this
i'm falling from the heaven we once shared together
the heaven that belonged to our big bang theory
you pushed me away.....i couldn't hold on
why.....i search for answers.....i tried to read your mind
but i can't.....i'm too tired.....sick at heart.
(Spring'98) be sick at heart on love that comes and goes
seek him who holds the other half of your soul
(???) my heart so fond of you
everyday i think of you
no single minute i stopped caring
are you the one who holds the other half of my soul
i want to be with you
but i'm scared to get hurt again
once i thought my heart has given up
no more love that often comes with pain
for i have carried enough burden and can no longer bear
then there you are...appeared out of the blue
and my heart started beating again...
let's not rush it for this is just perfect...
let's not rush it...'cause right now i am living in my fantasy world.....with you
let's not put this to waste.....i don't want to let you go
this is my world.....you are my word
hold my hand.....embrace my heart with yours
don't let go
(Spring '98) a smile from you is all i need
and maybe a couple of those tight big hugs
with these i sense the love in your eyes
the warmth and beating of your heavenly heart
i gazed up above to find the brightest star in the sky
and made a wish.....a wish of love from me to you
for you are my angel who "loves to whisper in my ears"
an angel who whistles on soft dark nights
for you are my angel.....for you are my prince
(Spring '98) i keep waiting and waiting
hoping you might want me
i can't sense it yet i still wait
am i a romantic-addict
or maybe a phobic of loneliness
it's late, late at night
and i sit here waiting
hoping you might show up...
to love me
(???) 
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